be mine <3

u must know
theres not in between
you either break my heart or become my boyfriend
but u must know
im tired of trying
this time im making my own rules
u either follow them or quit the game
but u must know
u could break me
inside and out
u got me by the neck
i cant escape now
u either save me or let me die
love me so i can
show me what is like
been loved and give it
no i cant help it now
u already got me by the heart
if u played me id hate you
if i loved you ull love me
but u should now by now
its either ull break my heart
or become mine

i cant deny whats in undeniable
i still have feeling for you
and have thoughts of a future together
but that will change eventually
im up to good now
no more faking no more questioning others
this is how ill be now
my real self
life is too good like to be worrying about past
too much to do like to regret what we couldnt do bedore
start now, regret never
its better to try and fail than failing at trying
my heart is finally open up
my wings are spreading to let people see what they couldnt before
i have so much inside to discover
the emptyness wont take over anymore
these dark clouds are falling down
and life is too awesome like to waste it
im here today because im meant to be
single and ready to mingle cuz thats the way
im supposed to learn from others
i got the best part of you
while you had my worst
i can help smiling and laughing by myself
this was way too dramatic
that it covered my body with sand
im getting out from the black hole
im waking up when is time to sleep for others
dont come get me
cuz i wont be back
im going away and not turning back

tu lo sabias
te dije que me dejaras sola
y asi lo hiciste
me dejaste ir y asi son las cosas
no me sigas
que no se cual es mi camino
no me digas que hacer
porque hare lo contrario
te has ido
y estoy mas sola que nunca
la confusion no se logra ir del todo
se que manana o pronto te vere
feliz de la mano de alguien mas
pretendere que no me afecta
actuare como si soy la mas feliz
de verte con alguien
de aun seguir soltera porq asi me gusta
y no trates de indagar mas alla de eso
porque me podrias hacer llorar
mi independencia lo es todo
estoy cubierta con plumas
son tan suaves
que si soplas veras el corazon sangriento
no te acerques mucho
porque a veces muerdo
vete
no me hables
no me escribas
yo esoty como aparento
feliz y viviendo la vida
mi sonrisa de vacia
y mis ojos no ven nada
dale la vuelta
tratare de pasar por de sapercivida
mientras mas cercano estas
mas arañas mis heridas frescas
te dare mi mejor sonrisa
nunca notaras mis verdaderas emociones
no te enteraras de como se siente no ser correspondida
me dejaste ir porq no te importe lo suficiente
me dejaste ir porque te lo pedi
y no te pesa
sola y sin final feliz una vez mas
me alejo para siempre
no volteare para despedirme
no me veras
no me notaras
ya me fui

so now you are back
after finally realising that u couldnt do better than this
so you think thats gonna make me happy
thats right
im happy u are actually seing what u wont have
what u missed
what it was
because i thougth we were there together
i thought u were jumping if i was
i got screwed
you got me bad

so if you think im gonna go running after you
now that ur back
ur wrong
i did move on
ive found myself more exciting without you
im enjoying life my way like i always did
im sorry now that ur gonna miss this
it s ur loss
all what you could have and let go
im awake and gone now

i do, i dont

i do like you
i dont see us together
i do listen every word u say
i dont care
i do feel theres something going on
i dont wanna let you go
......

i do, i dont

its been crazy!
these two past weeks ive been doing a lot of catching up
with myself and old life
that, perhaps i didnt miss that much like i thought
i had, yes, some affairs to take care before i could go on
and right now theres nothing more than thankfulness and clearing in my mind
im starting to grow up, finally!
fear is a word my personal dictionary doesnt have
i might hurt some
maybe one or a couple of people
but its part of reaching my dreams
and i have to let go a lot of the old me
im so happy this stupid crazy shit is happening to me
cuz seriously!
ive grown
ive walked the first half of this path i decided to take
no hard feelings
no more drama
baby, you know i like you big time
but im going down
and havent resolved some personal matters still
just wanna hold you til the day is over
and before the sun comes out
ill be gone for good
your damn own good
this is business now
real life
putting aside my thoughts and feelings
to show you nothing but my hard self
my no -heart- no -love -to -give side
if u are still down
welcome to my new life