hasta el fin

5 de la manana,
no puedo dormir
pensando en lo que pudo ser
y que ya no podra ser mas

tu nombre me roba el suenho
tu recuerdo se apodera de mi cama
es una de esas noches
donde la vida se hace pesada

Las cosas no estan bien
me he aferrado al pasado
no he podido dejar ir
lo que quizas nunca fue

He andado sola
por mucho tiempo
esta vez, queria companhia
lo estas dejando ir
ya me voy de nuevo con mi melancolia

No me llames si no es para crear nuevas cosas
no me escuches si no es para abrime el alma
mi incapacidad por mantener mi palabra
te ha hecho huir y esta vez sin retorno

He tratado de seguir adelante
pero tu sabes como soy
no veo, no escucho, no siento
mis sentidos solo van dirigidos a la guerra
y esta ya la he ganado

Me voy con mis ilusiones quebradas
para encontrar otro final feliz desde el cielo
me marcho con los ojos caidos,
una lagrima y opaco suspiro

ugh!
todo indica
que
me enamore,
y si,
esta vez podria doler..
y mucho
bastante,
si me rompen el corazon, me quedare
descorazonada
por mucho tiempo
quizas por siempre



eres tu?
donde estas?
te veo
pero no se si aun te siento

tell me

am i the only one affected?
or you are doing exactly what i am?
i keep asking myself countless questions
with no answers

am i the only one hurting?
or you are doing it intensively?
i keep thinking youll be back
wont you?

am i the one with the issues?
or yours are just worse than mine?
i couldnt figure you out
did you get me?

am i the one who doesnt appreciate things?
cuz that is what you said
i tried to show you who i was
were you paying attention?

im the only one caring
dont you think i have forgotten
the way you treated me
was not right

im the only one who keeps waiting
for a call, a message, an email
and ill wait and wait
cuz you wont

keep filling my glass up..feel my soul

Friday night
terrible weather
questions without answers
ansiety,
fear,
loneliness
people keep coming
questioning things that i have no answer for
they look at me
like they really like my looks
i look back at them
like "get that fuck off"
I am ready for more fun
these past weekends have been interesting
I just need some wine,
a lot of it to be honest,
a big white smile
and i'll bee all game
it is friday night,
the streets are white,
my soul is red
my mind is black
im ready for what is coming
im glad you are still there
watching me
cant wait for tonight
i am gonna see you

new begining

awesome night
awesome thoughts
everything is awesome like it is
i m so positive
ready to make it happen
life is too short like to regret things
life is too awesome like to let things go
it is up to you
up to your own will
life is too good to be true
take it day by day
smell the aromas
taste the flavors
touch the textures
it is an awesome start
the day just began
open the door
let it pop
you have only one life
you live only once
smile at everything
that makes you feel alive
its the new you
love it, live it, laugh it

snowy days

snowy days remind me of you
or how i used to feel about you
even though you are gone and not coming back
i still think you are around watching me
or maybe that is what i wanna believe

i wonder sometimes
why you would not fight for this
what was it about me that you felt it was not worth it
was it you? was it me?
as a matter fact, i am still unsure

i never got the chance to tell you about my feelings,
my crazy thoughts and even the future i planned for us
now all of this only exists in the back of my mind
you wont be longer part of it
you are too far

And the snow is falling down
with it, some tears upon my face
i cannot say i am sad
it is just an effing snowy day that blows my mind
and i wonder if you wonder the same things

but i am too far now
i always were you used to say
you will never get to see the whole of me
i will never have the chance to show you
it is too late now, you were always too far...

i dont know where to go
who to follow
when am i gonna see it clear?
my mind is stuck
cant find my way
i do need help
i wanna run away, but i dont know where
who with
i need some guidance
S.O.S.