Letter to you, from my heart: It's all for good.

Dear You,
I have been thinking and I came up with this conclusion:
I have to let you go with the 2009!
First of all, I wanna truly thank you for all the love, laughs and fun we had together,
but this is not making me happy anymore as a matter fact is making me very sad.
I cannot blame you for all, it might be also me and my issues, but, enough is enough.
I used to get mad because i thought you were acting that way because of me. Why did you never send me a text in the morning
saying good morning I miss you, or just making a comment about the weather or how beautiful you think I am.
Never did.
How about us having dinner, or lunch or simply a nice evening planned together. Never Happened, never will.
You always call late,
probably because I'd be the only person answering a call that late, it can be my fault for not making the rules and letting you know that is not cool.
I have also been thinking that, maybe it is not me.
It is not that you don't care about me but that is the way you are, your childish behaviour does not allow you to see beyond.
It is not that you do not like me, it is just that you are too clueless to know what a girl wants or at least be close.
I do not know if I am making these excuses to excuse myself, cuz if my second theory is wrong then it is me, you don't like me
you'll never see me as that girl.
And I am sorry but I had plenty. It hurts me that you don't see me like that cuz i could see you like it.

Second of all, this would not be the first time we are falling apart, but this time will be the last good bye.
It has been always me trying hard but still cannot find your heart.
You and me does not have a future, you an me was found part 3 in 2009 and you and me will stay to dispel there too.
I always learn my lesson the hard way, and there are many things I'm still learning.
I would not call you a mistake, i rather call you a wake up call
I'm getting old, my mind is clarifying the way.
I will miss you so much, perhaps way too much.
I am an easy person to forget, but this chapter will always remain in a box somewhere in my heart.
To finish with all this I just want you to know that I am ready to let you go, I sent you all the signs already. I wish you the best, you are an awesome person,
there will be no more you and me
have a Merry Christmas
and
a Very- very Happy 2010!
you were the best part of my 2009
loved you (part time)
Sandy D.

And I might confess that my fears are bigger that yours
im afraid of losing you
of waking up one day and know that you wont be by my side anymore
I have to tell you how much I want you in my life
so much that I really dont care what people could think of us
that im crazy that you are insane
Im scared of the fact that you could change me for somebody
better than me, prettier, smarter, funnier
that you stop calling me
that you wont reply my messages
that you could ignore me and make me fall
I dont know what your intensions are
neither mine
but this affection is growing day by day
i like you so much that hurts
i want you so bad that i cant even show you how
i guess its time
i promise im trying to give you the best of me
hopefully you can see it
i cant let you go now
im deeply in love with you
and this time is literally with you, together, holding hands