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im gonna create a new identity
cuz i dont remember who i am
im gonna start over new one more time
be completely naked
and love my entire me
my simple me
my new me
the real me
im gonna stop thinking of the others
of who i was
of who i wanted to be
ill come clean
i wasnt like that
they made me this
they tried to put me down
lower than i expested to be
they were pretending that were with me
but the truth is that they all were against me
they taught me the hard way
they introduced me to the dirt
im sorry for them that i wanted to come with me
i didnt know what was all that about
i couldnt see beyond my eyes, the wall, the lights
i promise all do it on my own
alone as i love to be
by myself as i always wanted to do my own thing
screw you old life
welcome my 23s

!!!

wow
estoy mas trankila
gracias a este lokisimo comienzo del fin de semana
me he dado cuenta de muchas cosas
abri los ojos
en verdad!
en que he estado pensando?
esoty un poco loca
y me refiero a la locura de un loco de manicomio
jaja
sobre todo cuando tomo y no me acuerdo de nada al dia sgte
obviamente eso solo pasa cuando estoy con alguien q me hara
refrescar la memoria y todos los acontecimientos pasados
durante la manana sgte en la qe me levanto y me pregunto
como llegue a parar aca?
ya sea mi casa o la de alguna amiga o de la amiga de mi amiga que al final temrina siendo
mi amigaza tb
bueno como decia,
estaba pensando en musaranhas y castillos encantados
cuando no son reales
detesto la realidad,

la burbuja en la q vivia un tiempo atras
era perfecta o casi
era mi realidad
me la robaron!
la despojaron de entre mis dedos
ya no puedo escapar de mi apestoso destino ahora
es un poco tarde
y creo estar ilusionada con alguien q solo existe en mi mente
no es real,
el no me mira
es fictisio,
el no lo sabe

como quisiera que el destino nos vuelva a juntar
nos tropecemos
y recoja el pañuelo que dejare caer
nos miremos cara a cara
y me robe un beso
acto seguido me tome de la mano
y me diga que ya no quiere que me vaya de su lado nunca mas..
en seguida alguien me tira un lapo
me sobo los ojos
auch! estaba pasando solo en mi cabeza

a veces pienso que el seria la solucion a todos mis problemas
q con amor yo misma les encontraria la salida
q a su lado yo seria la mujer maravilla
y el seria x 1oopre mi super hombre
que por el vale la pena dejarlo todo
mi libertad
mi vida egoista
mi juerga nocturna
mi flojera cronica
y mis lentes de sol por la manana

pero todo esta en mi mente
el no vendra
y si viene
no me querra
Dios
el me inspira tanto
suenho con el dia y noche
pienso que el piensa en mi
pero no lo hace

estoy llena de vacio por dentro
llena de miedo que me delata
y me deja siempre a medias
y hace que me desespere
ojala me trajera su boca
le daria un muy buen uso ;)
ojala me tocara con sus manos
las haria de seda y perpetuas en mi cintura

ojala supieras
pero no lo haces
ojala dijeras que por alguna extranha razon tu tb sientes asi
que tanto no se de nada?
que poco se de todo!
no llamaras
yo tampoco

ten una vida maravillosa a dos horas de camino de Kearny sin mi
y contigo mismo
que me parece lo mejor que me trajo y luego se llevo el verano
solo Dios sabe porq las cosas pasan
te espero con desespero y lo seguire haciendo.

as long as you hold me

sometimes you just cannot make it on your own
but you hate asking people for help
and you miss those times when daddy was able to resolve all your problems
when your weeping could be stopped by your mom
there is when you realize that sincerely you cant make it alone
when everybody seems so happy around you
you must think everythings alright
but when they turn around you cant see the other face
oh God
its impossible to live in peace when you cant have it
and i ask you something
could you make it here in this time?
would you be able to survive on earth now?
i believe before, when technology didnt exist
and ignorance governed
things where more simple and less ambiguous
im so down that nobody could put me lower
im underneath the surface
all alone with my hundreds of friends
all alone with all the dates i can get
all alone with my hopeless prayers
all alone with my 7 days a week parties

as long as you can hold me
ill be existing but not living

i want you back-back-back-back

i see you everyday only in a picture
i remember every single second we spent together
every song tells me your name
what should i do if ur so far away??
how can i make you see that im the one??
cuz I AM
look at me
we are perfect for each other
look at you
you are perfect for me

u took me out from the dirt i was living in
u appeared like some kind of miracle in my sunny days
how can i explain you all the feelings i have for you
come back
i want you back in my back to back me up
i want you back to give you whatever you want from me
take it all!
if i dont have you i have nothing
if you dont see me
i dont deserve to be seen
if you dont listen to me
i dont want nobody to listen to me

come
back
come
c
o
m
e

i havent told you yet what im made of
i havent showed you all my strengths
you only saw my weaknesses
and i hate that i did it
would you take me still?
im beging you to beg me biatch
coooooomeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
baaaaaaaaaaaaaackkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

soon =D