THINGS I COULDNT SAY

there are still so many things I didnt get to tell you
I was dying to say the words "I love you too"
my pride and reason did not allow me to
every single thing dictated me that you were not the one
that I should not waste my time
I wasted almost a year on this..
but oh how much we went through.

I wish you knew how much I enjoyed to cuddle with you
morning kisses and late dinners
I wish i could have said "im sorry" more often
I really pushed your buttons badly
I didnt mean to hurt you at all times
I never said how much i liked your body on top of mine
so strong, so firm, so young
i felt protected

I wish I could tell you straight up
that all I wanted from you was You
to be with me, holding hands
i guess Im used to always be late
I couldnt wish you bad
even though im still tempted to make you feel
like im the only one
you dream about, you desire the most
although i already know
i lost you for good or better

i dont know if i got to thank you for your time
and all the unforgettable memories
for taking me out of the whole i was falling into
for making me forget about him
and start loving with an open mind..
there are still so many things we will have to let behind and unsaid
it is what it is
....

and guess who's back
it seems like my heart is a recycling loving machine
he might this time be the one who helps me forget about you
perhaps, ill have to go all the way back to where I came from....